Month: September 2009

>The story I love…

>She holds my head close to her chest and starts to tell me that story i love so much (then i guess i hadn’t acquired that 6 feet height of mine)……

…… I left the house that morning, leaving your brother in the care of your aunt… i was sure my water had broken, i packed all the baby things i was going to need at the hospital. I don’t know why i never said a word to your father or any one else. In fact i met my sister in law on my way to get a cab, she was taking the kids to school so she offered to give me a ride thinking i was going for my usual check up….. immediately i got to the hospital and the doctor took a look at me he had the nurses prep me up for delivery.

I had no idea if the child was going to be a boy or a girl, all i could read from the doctors gaze was that i really didn’t have nothing to worry about. The time was about half past 10:00 in the morning……. i went into labour fully about 11:00 Am and it was not easy, i felt the pressure and pain, i willed the baby to come out but it seemed not ready, i was a bit worried….

Did it have to take so long?

At about a few minutes after 12:00 the baby finally came out… giving a healthy cry i waited for them to put him in my arms (I had another boy).

My baby, my son…. you’ve come into this world at the right time…. i looked at him and he was so lovely, a bit stubborn but so lively.



>These days i have the impression that I’m aloof. I refuse to publicly express myself with out an extremely good reason to. A smile here, a grin there, and a sneer for any one who thinks they can take advantage of my soft demeanour.

At times it can be a terrible place, this world.

I have a habit (don’t know if its a bad one or a good one). I tend to reflect on past relationships and figure out what could possibly have gone wrong instead of leaving things as they were. One of the most consistent problems they always have with me is my “sensitivity”.

At this point I’ve had it. I’m out of ideas and I’m not talking about how to move on to the next relationship, I’m talking about having to explain that the person you met is who you’re gonna be stuck with for as long as the relationship lasts. I know women are sensitive and full of compassion, well as odd as it might sound i have my own measure of that and its what makes me “ME”.

Believe it when i say this; I’m a full blooded straight guy with massive doses of testosterone, calculative and a lot of times obsessively objective. but I’m also honest, blunt with words and effectively emphatic.

These latter qualities make me no less a man, rather they make me a special kind of man. And that’s the one I always want to exude.

So when I meet a lady who wants a typical guy (the stereotypical male) and she observes all these qualities, if she walks away thinking; the guy is so sensitive, i guess its more of her loss than mine.

With respect to the girls/ ladies; i just want to find the woman who’s meant for me. I’m not about notching up numbers and bedding chicks.

I’m more of the guy who’s desire is to find a soul mate.

I”m sure i sound like I’m flinging the “holier than Dow” phrases in a couple of faces but I’m also prone to moments of weakness. Its not something I proudly admit. I’m also a guy working towards becoming a better man to my woman.

I don’t know if smiley thinks I’m sensitive, but that’s for her to decide.

what do the rest of you think? Am I sensitive???

>Kagashi Bunshin!!!

>you might be wondering what has gotten in to me concerning the title of my latest post… well that’s what i wish i could do right no so i could experience all that i wanted to at the same time. Since i started work more than 3 weeks ago I’ve had to spend the most of my life working Long hours. i just finished a two week working marathon and its not looking like I’m nearing an end. Unfortunately my body has finally given in and craves rest. hopefully administration should work out a roaster that’ll ensure i get time off.

I mean considering the character Naruto could develop several clones of himself using a particular justu that and still experience the various emotions and memories they all felt, it sure seems like a good idea considering my situation. i mean, I’m way behind on hanging out with my boys, spending quality time with smiley and playing with my dolls. i mean, one of them kept asking me through out the weekend why i had to go to work every single day.

what i would give to posses the jutsu of kagashi bunsghin…..
well in the words of my boss when he addressed us for the first time; “your lives are going to solely revolve around this company”.

Right now I’m down with my first fever in almost 4 yeas and quite honestly it feels odd and annoying.
From my business manager to my colleagues, I’ve been advised and ordered to go home and get some rest. my head of HR even threatened to issue me a query for not taking a break.
its not like I’m feeling like one hardworking, dedicated worker, i just feel, its too early to cave into all the pressure and stress.

I think the main down side to this whole job thing is the strain its causing between me and smiley… she hardly sees me these days and i can tell how badly she misses holding me. its hard on her considering the sharp change we experienced from spending virtually every day together to barely seeing each other all week. i know i definitely have to make it up to her…..soon.

The more reason why I need Kagashi Bunshin!
or maybe the Super Eagles need it more than me, considering they had a difficult time celebrating one goal leads in one match, if they had that jutsu they probably would have been able to defend their lead as well as celebrate the goal they had scored considering how much into the celebration they were into.

As for me, i had the strong feeling that it was going to turn out sour so i switched to my Nigerien personalty mode; claiming i was more interested in camel racing than football.

So all you Nigerian should stop beating yourselves over qualification for the world cup, there’s a camel racing world cup that happens in Niger every 6 months and the only thing you need to qualify is a healthy camel and its flies.

see you guys later…